October 7, 2010
Posted by Heather Brown at 12:14 AM
August 18, 2010
I can't believe my kiddo is old enough to be in Preschool. this is the first year she has gone. She has talked about school for the last year but I kept telling her she had to be able to do certain things when she goes potty to be able to go. It was a struggle with her to get her potty trained due to us moving so much. But she finally has the hang of it and she is so proud she gets to be in school. I dont know if this kid has one shy bone in her body. She talks to anyone that talks to her. Anywhere we go... She has an awesome personality and is full of life. She is VERY strong willed. But she is determined. She concentrates with everything she does and she LOVES her art. Anything that has to do with coloring, painting, cutting or "projects" she is ALL about! It was not hard for me to drop her off because I knew she was ready. But then again I was too! It might be different when she is in kindergarten and gone from me all day everyday. But when we got to her school she said ok bye mom. I am like um can I get a kiss at least! She ran up to me and said thank you for bringing me to school! And she jumped right in.
Posted by Heather Brown at 11:33 AM
August 5, 2010
So here I am sitting, thinking about my day. Which in turn gets me to thinking about my life. I was told I say too many sad things on facebook when I update my status. When the truth is that is how I feel. I dont only write things that make it seem like my life is perfect and happy. I write things that are truthful. If I'm having a good day I let everyone know, but I also say when I'm having a hard time. I have literally been through hell and back the last few years of my life. I have done a lot of soul searching and come to realize it wasnt the people around me that was the issue, the issue was within me. So when I finally discovered what was going on, I took a step left and started walking forward again. I did this in Feb. That was when my life turned around. I finally started moving forward, instead of living in the past and worrying about what had happened and started looking forward to what could happen. But just when I get to the point that I love my life, it gets turned upside down again. Jason and I def have not had the best marriage. We have struggled a lot. But we have made it through. And I know we can make it through anything. This is our third deployment in 5 years. Im gonna lay out a timeline for those of you who don't know.
We got married Feb 2005. He deployed Aug 2005-Nov 2006. He was home from Nov 2006-March 2008. He then deployed again March 2008-April 2009. He was home from April 2009-June 2010. So far to date he has been deployed 32 months of our 66 months of marriage. But the thing that a lot of people dont get. Its so much harder for him to come home and get adjusted then it is for him to leave. We are used to a routine and have things down packed and then this man comes back into our lives and wants to fit in. So the whole routine gets messed up. And when we finally get around to it being ok, he leaves again.
So people say this is your third deployment you should know what to expect by now. That is not the case at all. Jason and I's marriage and relationship is in a lot better place now then it ever has been, and he is A LOT busier this deployment then the last two combined. Putting those two together means we barely get to talk. He isnt getting off work til 1 or 2 am, his night is my day and my night is his day. So when he is gettin up goin to work, Im goin to bed. We talk a lot less this deployment then any others. Which last deployments it was too much how much we could talk cuz he wasnt busy. So it was overbearing how much we talked. (if this is making sense) He calls about 2-3 times a week and yes we do talk on messenger but its just not the same. I have found myself more depressed this deployment then any others. I know I have to be strong for Madi. I know I cant lay in bed all day, but there are days where I don't want to get out of bed. Madi has been great with dealing with seeing her mom cry. She pats my back and comforts me. That is how she was with me today. She knows I get sad. She knows I miss daddy. She knows when to let me cry and she knows when to make me smile. She has been my world these past few months and I could not imagine my life without her.
So when I am sad, I will be sad. When I am happy, I will be happy. I know once Mason comes I will be even more busy and then will be working my butt off to lose weight and that will keep me busy too. I just want these next few weeks to fly and get this baby out!!
Posted by Heather Brown at 6:15 PM
August 1, 2010
There is a waterpark out in Anthem that we have gone to a few times too. Madi was very afraid of going under the big bucket the first time, but after all her swim lessons she is becoming more brave of water hitting her face. I got her to go under it 4 times the last time we went! We will have to go again for sure!
We also got to find out we are having a BOY! Oh man I so wish Jason could have been there with me. Just hearing his reaction over the phone was priceless. I just wish I coulda seen his face and shared it with him. Madi and my mom were there and it was fun to have them with me. Jason is excited he finally gets his boy! Me on the other hand, I'm nervous. I know girls. I don't know boys. Im hoping it just comes naturally like it did with Madi. So wanna know his name? Here ya go!!
I have been having fun shopping for Mason. But I am still finding myself going back to the girl section. My mom and I are making the cutest blanket for him! Its all about trucks, robots, cars and bugs!! Can't wait to post pics. I have bought outfits for him too. Its actually kinda fun shopping for something different. Jason and I got rid of EVERYTHING from when Madi was a baby. I kept somethings that I loved of hers like favorite outfits and stuff. We really werent planning on having any more kids. So I am starting over again! But thats ok I know he will be worth it.
Posted by Heather Brown at 1:44 AM
July 9, 2010
For the 4th of July my parents, Madi and I went to Tempe Town lake to watch the fireworks. The night before we went to Cave Creek and watched their little display of fireworks! haha. Madi thinks fireworks are the coolest thing and I love that she gets into it. 4th of July is my favorite holiday and its the one I struggle with the most when Jason is gone. I felt down the whole weekend but I try to be strong for Madi. Sometimes it sux to be strong but I know I have to be. I hate Madi seeing me sad but she also knows we both miss daddy so much.
This picture is us in the backseat on the way to the fireworks!
Posted by Heather Brown at 8:06 PM
June 30, 2010
For Fathers Day my sister and I pitched in and got my dad tickets to the Yankees game when they came in town to play the Diamondbacks. I knew I got the section by the Yankees bull pen but I didnt know that we could actually throw things at the players if we wanted to. Dad and I wanted to have a spitting contest of our cherry seeds but security was pretty tight!! haha. We got to rest our feet on the bull pen! It was way cool. I think some of my favorite memories are at baseball games with my dad. We used to go to Spring Trainings all the time. I will be here next year for it and I can't wait.
She has known these boys almost since the day she was born. The two next to her are Parker and Jacob and their little brother Cody. The twins and Madi are only 2 months apart. I have pictures of them from New Years Eve that first year they were born and we have got together with them every chance we get. They are at such a fun age now that they actually play together. Madi loves beating up on the boys. Shes not a flirt or anything. We had just got out of the pool here. Next time I will have to get pictures of them in the pool!
Posted by Heather Brown at 8:29 PM
June 22, 2010
I know I havent done this since December. But a lot has been going on. Now that Jason is deployed I would like to have something he can look at besides facebook. We found out at the end of Jan that we are expecting baby number 2 in Sept. Today I am 26 weeks along and havent found out what we are having yet. Jason has started his third deployment to Afghanistan and I moved back to Arizona. I will keep this blog updated now. At least once a week if not more. I signed Madi up for swim lessons, ballet and hip hop dance classes and she starts preschool this year. I will have a lot to blog about! My goal is to keep her as busy as possible!
Madi on the airplane. Its a 2am flight and she stayed awake the first two hours lil stinker. She was quiet though and thats all I care about!
Mom and dad at our Marsden Family Reunion. First time mom had driven a 4 wheeler, Im so proud she didnt even crash! I wont talk about my dad and that dirt bike!!But you will notice that my dad is no longer driving the dirt bike hahha!!
Posted by Heather Brown at 8:35 PM
December 29, 2009
Fun times at the Zoo!
She misses her dexter dog so much. She even got a stuffed animal that looks like him for her birthday! She LOVES it!!!
Posted by Heather Brown at 1:14 AM
December 15, 2009
We got our box from Grandma and Papa Lyon. Madi was so excited to open it she didnt want to wait for daddy to get home from work.. But she waited so patiently! Here is what we got!
Madi got these books. They are so cute. This girl absolutely LOVES to read!! I love her love for books. We go to the library and she could stay there all day looking at all the books there!
She loves this ornament.. I love watching her face when she opens presents... Her reaction is priceless!
They got us a nativity set... I am so excited about his because we don't have one yet.. I have been meaning to get one but this is the first year we have decorated completely for Christmas.. But we all think this angel looks like Madi!! I love it!
Posted by Heather Brown at 1:32 PM
December 7, 2009
I LOVE ALASKA!!! Being in Anchorage is A MILLION times better than Fairbanks. We can actually be outside and do stuff and not freeze to death in negative 50 below weather. We went to the Downtown Tree lighting ceremony. The first time we have ever gone to one of these. We didnt realize how far away we parked so we were glad it was decently warm outside!
Here we are waiting for the ceremony to start!
We went for a drive up the mountain. Why we didnt do this in our truck I DONT KNOW. But we took the car and drove as high as we could. We finally got to a point where the car was just rolling backwards so we decided to turn around before we went off the edge!!
We finally took Madi Ice Skating. This is her first time doing it. And this is her saying look mama i can do it all by myself..
She finally got brave enough to let go of the wall...
And then she got brave enough to let go of me!
She would fall down and say Im ok and get right back up!! She is one tough cookie! One time she fell and just laid there for about 2 minutes and finally said um mom i am cold...
Madi and Jason getting the tree stand ready for the tree. This is our 4th christmas together and the first time we have went and bought a tree and put it up! The first Christmas I was in Arizona getting ready to have Madison while Jason was deployed. The 2nd Christmas Jason had just got home from Deployment and we were going to TN for 2 weeks so we didn't get a tree. The third Christmas we were in Arizona with Jason home on leave from deployment and this year is our first year with no family around but our own! I am so excited that we get to be together this year because once again next year Jason will be gone....
Sad that this girl is 3 and its her firs tree! She did a great job in helping us pick it out. Also my sister Mandy made our stockings and tree skirt for Christmas a few years ago and this is the first year we get to use them!!
Posted by Heather Brown at 9:25 AM