Random Post

I had the chance to go to Rexburg this weekend. I haven't had the oppurtunity to see the Rexburg Temple there. Its cool how you can see it from almost any part of town you are in! I love this Temple. It is beautiful!! I love how it just sits right on top of the hill!! So awesome!!!



I decided to go brunette again. I am not gonna lie, i get so bored with my hair. I change it a lot! So here is the due of the week!!!!
This is my friend Shelley that I stayed with in Idaho. She is an amazing woman! She showed up in my life at the perfect time!!!
And this is my lil Madi. I cannot believe how big she has gotten. Her new favorite thing is dress up! How cute is she!!!!!
And if you can't tell her hair is chopped too! I bobbed it off and it looks so dang cute! She looks so grown up!!!
BTW all these pics (except the Temple pics) are taken from my cell phone!!!

A New Beginning

BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD!!!!!!

Wow, I don't even know where to start with this post. I have been out of the blogging world lately and concentrating on my own life. I went to a place called Impact Training. My Aunt who I am living with started it in May and I have seen such a happiness about her I always asked her what the heck she did to be so happy. Well then I moved in with her and she introduced me to it and I went this last weekend. Let me tell you, Im not gonna lie it is BY FAR the HARDEST thing I have ever had to do in my life. But the reward that I feel right now is so AMAZING!!! I have come to realize that for the first time in my LIFE, I LOVE MYSELF! I realized that I had SOOO many walls built up around me from past experiences that I couldn't let go of. Those walls are down. I have learned to let my inner child come out. I found that little girl that was so scared to do so many things in her life. It has been amazing to see the difference in my relationship with Madison. I used to get stressed so easily and get so angry about a little spill or her not going to bed. I wasn't letting her be a kid. I came home from training one night and we were up dancing and playing and Madi heard us at 3am and came out. Normally I would send her right back, but I picked her up and started dancing with her. We had chocolate ice cream and chocolate milk at 330am!! She spilled Amber's (my cousin) coke on sunday and got it all over herself and all over the floor and I saw her look at me so scared and immediatly started tearing up and saying im sorry mom im sorry. And I started laughing. I was like honey its ok!! She stopped crying and looked at me and started laughing and said I spilled mom I help you clean it up! Seeing that I had already built walls around my 2 year old little girl made my heart drop.... We have little assingments if you will to do everyday. Today is bring out the inner child in you. So today I get to take Madi to a corn maze and get lost in the fun. We are going to carve pumpkins and sing our favorite songs. I cannot believe what a transformation I have had in just a few days. My eyes are opened. I am free. I am alive. And I feel amazing.....

As many of you know my husband is gone right now.... I am at peace with that. I know I can do this. I know I can be the best mom I can be. I know I can be the best wife I can be. I am living life to the fullest, and I CANNOT wait to see Jason again and have him see who I TRULY am. I learned that I could not truly love people until I loved myself. I am excited to put this in action!!! This is my new theme song!!! I listen to it and dance to it everyday!!!!


When you call for me
When i hear you breath
I got wints to fly
I feel that i'm alive

When you look at me
I can touch the sky
I know that i'm alive

When you blessed the day
I just drift away
All my world is right
I'm glad that i'm alive

You set my heart on fire
Filled me with love
Made me a woman
I'm glad you're back

I couldn't get much highter
My spirit takes flight
Because i'm alive

When you call on me
When I hear you breath
I get wings to fly
I feel that i'm alive

When you reach for me
Erases fear inside
Loves knows that

I'll be the one standing by
Throught good and throught tiring time
And it's only begun
I can't wait for the rest of my life

When you call for me
When you reach for me
I get wings to fly

When you blessed the day
I just drift away
All my world is dark
I know that i'm alive

I get wings to fly
God knows that i'm alive

Madi and her best friend

Ill have a few random posts in the next few days. Today I took Madi out to some tracks I found. I LOVE LOVE this first shot of her.... The second shot says a lot about her and Dexter. She kept saying look at mommy dexter. haha. She loves this dog. This dog is her world. Anytime we go anywhere she always says dont forget dexter mom. And I say not today. So when he came today she was SOOO happy. When we first got him Madi was about 8 months old. He is so protective of her and has been since we saw him at the pound. He has been a great dog and friend for her. I will send her out back to play and I will see Madi dragging Dexter by his collar sayin come on lets go. Pretty dang cute..... Then we went and drove around MT Timpanogas Temple. I haven't seen it before but as everyone knows I LOVE taking pictures of the Temple!!